Back to Square One
Well I may sound like an angry third-grader when I say this but...school sucks and I absolutely HATE it, every year I seem hate it more and more as the years pass. No I don't hate it just because "oh it's boring", I hate it because school screws with my head. What I mean by that is it causes my anxiety to skyrocket and which then in turn causes my depression to worsen, and with the two combined I start to become sick more frequently. I mean I get REALLY sick, such as having mental breakdowns and vomiting...yeah it's THAT bad...Just the pressure to try and do well in my studies causes me to freak out. Hell no matter how hard I try, going passed my limits, I still fail and humiliate myself. I can't even go up to the front of the class to present a paper without stuttering like an idiot and control my shaking, my English teacher and the other students probably think I'm retarded or something since that happened. The worse part of it all is that the year just fucking started and my life is already going downhill. I'll probably fail before the second semester without a doubt. I also feel like I'm losing pieces of myself since all I've been doing for a month straight is doing school related work and studying, I feel like I am turning into a mindless zombie. I don't know...does this all make sense? I don't suppose you would understand it all but hey this is how messed up I am.

Projects?
So yeah though I'm extremely busy I've tired my hardest to do some projects just because I damn feel like it, I can be a real slacker sometimes. *lol* Well here's a list of what I'll be doing. It will take a while but I will still get to them when I get the chance...if I get it...
*Fate/Stay Night*
Operation Copycat...failed
Caster
Bloody Memories
Demon of the Skies-Rider

Back to School
Well with my second week into school I have to say I can't complain too much about it to be honest. It's very good to see all of my friends again that I haven't seen or talked to over the summer, the long break was nice BELIEVE ME when I say it but it was rather lonely. It could've been one of the reasons of why I had been so depressed, I wouldn't doubt that for a second. Though I'm going to dread the amount of work that will start to flow in soon...very soon. Because of that I won't be around DA as often I usually am anymore, maybe check some messages and comments here and there but other than that I won't be doing much else. I will however try to cram some deviations on here whenever I get the time to, if I even get any at all. So thats that folks.

Anime Kaiju?
A very good friend of mine , has invited me to stay with her for another convention, Anime Kaiju! Hopefully I'm allowed to go, I just barely made it for ConnectiCon so my chances are slim. T_T But if there is a will there is a way! >.<9 I'm sure I can work something out with my folks, they're pretty easy going...well sometimes. ^_^;

This is something came up with and so I thought I would try it.

This is how it goes:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Simple,yes?


Opening Credits:

Waking Up: Final Fantasy IX-Melodies of Life

First Day At School: Red Hot Chili Peppers-Snow

Falling In Love: Final Fantasy X-Suteki Da Ne

Fight Song: Drowning Pool-Bodies

Breaking Up: Nightwish-I Wish I Had An Angel

Life: Gnarls Barkley-Crazy

Mental Breakdown: Evanescence-Taking Over Me

Driving: Dropkick Murphys-The State of Massachusetts

Flashback: Nightwish-Sahara

Getting Back Together: REM-Shiny Happy People

Wedding: Nightwish-Planet Hell

Birth of Child: ( O_o what is this child you speak of,there will never be such thing... ) Ayumi Hamasaki-Dearest

Final Battle: Styx-Mr.Roboto

Death: My Chemical Romance-Helena

Funeral Song: Serj Tankian-Lie Lie Lie

End Credits: Flogging Molly-Seven Deadly Sins

Should I Continue?
I just need some feedback from some of my watchers or anyone that happens to stumble by here if I should continue creating "art". Recently I've been feeling that I am a failure and a joke of an artist,was I really considered an artist to begin with? I feel as if I don't belong here on DA filled up with billions of actual talented artists. But it's strange that I find peace and comfort in art,but I strongly wish I can improve so I could actually take pride in my work.

Summer Vacation is...Over...
Well classes are once again starting,next Tuesday on the 26th. I'm both dreading and a LITTLE I say again only A LITTLE excited to see my long lost that I've neglected to keep in touch over the summer. Plus I believe this year will a better one than last year,since toward the end of last year I became very sick from my Insomnia,depression,and iron definacy. Two out of the three problems have been solved by taking new medication and treatment,it turns out I didn't just have clinical depression,I had Bipolar disorder stage 2...once again my quack of a doctor has been prescribing me with the wrong meds for the wrong problem. So in turn it had made me worse,so for the past four years I had relied on something that I thought would help me,AND I had insisted quite a few times that I did indeed have Bipolar because my symptoms were a bit milder than depression. But however unfortunately my Insomnia has not been taken care of,instead it had gotten even worse,much worse. My doctor has been refusing to give me sleep meds because she claims that "oh well your sleep pattern has been disturbed since you take 8 hour naps during the day.You just have to fight off sleeping during the daytime so you may begin to sleep at night..." D: Uh well the thing is doc,I sleep during the day because I can't sleep at night to begin with! And just maybe if you prescribe me with some sleep meds I wouldn't have to sleep during the daytime. Also she has been presing me to go to bed early which I have been TRYING to do,but you'll never guess what happens everytime...I swear I can't EVER win...

A Mini Vacation
Well I'm off to Boston tomorrow ad I'll be staying there until Thursday,unfortunately a con isn't going on until next May,so I won't be submitting some artwork for a bit but I'll be around here and there checking up on my messages and stuff like that,especially late at night as of now. :/

ConnectiCon Videos
If anyone is still interested in watching some video clips from ConnectiCon,here they are posted below. This time I have Cosplay Chess footage too,though the quality is kind of crappy. -_-

1.) Chess part 1-[link]
2.)Chess part 2-[link]
3.)Chess part 3-[link]
4.)Chess part 4-[link]
5.)Chess part 5-[link]stBGD8T_uc&feature=related
6.)Chess part 6-[link]
7.)Chess part 7-[link]
8.)Chess part 8- [link]
9.)Chess part 9-[link]
10.)Chess part 10-[link]